My Depression Story
Dear Reader, I’m so glad I was able to finish that last post. It’s a bit of a momentous occasion for me – it is the first thing I have successfully finished in a very long time. For the past few years, I have let go of things that I have been responsible for and let countless people down over and over again. I have been absent and flaky and unreliable. Unreliable . I’ve really grown to hate that word – it is so separate from the person I was when I was growing up. Young Shadi was never unreliable. She was clever and organised and ambitious. She wrote a great deal and worked very hard and achieved things and never let anyone down. She could have been anything. Done anything. Older Shadi’s not very good at getting out of bed. Older Shadi has periods of blankness – a zombie-state where she can barely feel or comprehend anything around her. She hardly even hears anything. There isn’t really anything going on in her mind, either, except perhaps the urge to lie down in a dark r